hi brenz (and other bored on the train randoms)…!

(posted from treo. pic, etc later)

odds are this is my last "live" update until tuesday or so. my clock strikes 30 soon enough and folks are in town and i'm fairly certain i won't give a shit about this place till it's all over. think of me going into a cocoon and when i come out i'll be, no fucking different really.

but don't forget part 2 of the porn post tomorrow.

so brendan dropped by the other day. I like when he drops by cuz he only does it every so often and then he comments on a bunch of posts. This leads me to read those posts. See, I have tremendous add and generally forget what i've written two seconds after I post it.

so I go back and read the stuff, and somehow don't normally recall writing it and often think to myself "this guy's fuckin brilliant!" of course I am…if I wrote it, I clearly agree with it. Why wouldn't I think i'm smart? My favourite example of this is my brownie post, which I recently quoted because I didn't think I could say it any better than me.

so hi brenz!

Now that i'm on the precipice (as an aside i was nowhere near spelling precipice correctly) of the big three-oh, i've been gettin asked about finding a girl, getting married and having some kids. 2 out of 3 of those sound pretty good. I love women and want kids. I think I could do without the marriage thing. I'm not really a guy who wears jewelry and I like my stuff, don't wanna split it up if the relationship goes sour.

it's funny, the biggest factor folks bring up when the subject comes up is kids. "don't you want to have kids while you're young so you can enjoy them?" what? ya shittin me? I want to enjoy being young while I'm young. I think the problem here is life expectancy used to be lower so you were stupid not to drop a kid by 23. These days it's not so much the case.

i'm gonna live till 90. Probably longer. When i'm 82 i'll be perfectly able to pop a lil blue pill, drop a load in a functioning baby machine, and have a prize pop out 9 months later (barring ball cancer or the mumps of course). There's no problems there. So no, i'm not worried.

leaves me to wonder what the rush is. but I promise i'll start looking harder soon.

Here's a question. Is it stupid to drop about $500 to go to chicago for a day?

the day would be great. early flight in, cubs/cards at wrigley, drinking in wrigleyville (with brian, amy, sean and others) after, chi town deep dish, more drinking (with likely more people), then a nap and a flight back the next morning.

i'm inclined to do it, but everyone i've asked says it's a really stupid idea which I also agree with.

what to do, what to do?

ahh well, it's tunnel time. catch youse laster.